Intense Trauma Reflection – Why Am I Constantly Triggered By Others?

Are you constantly triggered by your friends, family, or coworkers and don’t really know why? It’s a trauma reflection!

I had this situation at work where one of my coworkers first called in sick and then just never came back without giving notice. All I thought was “what a d**k move” and felt like she left us hanging because we then had to reschedule at work for the past several weeks, over and over again. Even tho my schedule didn’t change a lot – iit still triggered me so much.

Here is the thing: whenever someone or something like this triggers us, it’s never really because of the situation itself. It’s never because we are just an angry person or the other person is misbehaving.
Often we overthink HOW we feel and how we think the other person should be behaving or shouldn’t be.

But the most important thing is WHY we feel a certain way:
It’s a trauma reflection, which for instance is a feeling we get, created by a situation or person we were an energetic match to experiencing because of a trauma/thought pattern we already had somewhere in our energy.

The only way to completely shift those reoccurring unpleasant patterns in your life is by getting to the root cause of that feeling you keep having.

I’ve been reflecting on my traumas, feelings, and behavioral patterns for a while now which is why I can help you understand why and how the traumas you had are still affecting you today.
However, this blog post is not for you – If you don’t want to take responsibility for your emotions and constant anger or annoyance with others.

1. Why was I triggered?

So I looked into where this massive almost disappointment in her was coming from because I might as well have not cared. I tried to find a word for how I felt she was being but all I could think of it just was a “d**k move” haha. This is totally fine. After all, we do not need to overthink this because often we can’t explain certain feelings, which is exactly my point. However, this feeling – the way she made me feel like – had been created before doesn’t matter the word I give it.

I immediately looked into it and figured that I have “people really suck” energy in my creator field lol. But let me explain!

Somehow and somewhere in my life, I still subconsciously believe that a lot of people are just mean, unappreciative, and treat others shitty.

However, while this partially could be true – I don’t want that in my energy simply because not only do I not want to manifest a life in which people suck haha but also because I won’t be able to manifest my desired life.
Please bear with me I’m gonna explain all of this!

First of all, it’s very important to not gaslight ourselves into “people are awesome” because we don’t actually believe that, or seemingly I don’t lol. We then would miss a step and we don’t want to overlook the root cause.

So I looked into where in my life I am still mad at people and why.

This is what came up on limiting beliefs:

“People suck because nobody seems to notice what a cool person I am and that I should be getting more attention and rewards for the work I’ve been doing (vocation-wise).”
“Mean people seem to always get all the nice things like the house, the soulmate, the dream career, and even worse they get to live my dream life??”
(Also just for reference this is what my dream life looks like – just in case you wondered haha)

Okay let’s move on:
“It just feels like people are born in nice families – with a certain leverage and get all the nice things. And even tho I deserve them too, I was born in an overall unstable family and in a country where I can’t do any of the things I’d love to do.”

Haha omg, the victim pick-me vibes are killing me – I’m honestly laughing at myself as I’m writing this. I thought I had cleared out these limiting beliefs for good a while back but healing the subconscious can be tricky!

Ok, so let’s get to the cool and fun part let’s shift this stuff!

2. Shifting from limiting beliefs to new beliefs

I want to take you through my process of working through these limiting beliefs. Even if some of it might not make complete sense to you keep in mind that this is my trauma reflection which is used as an example to explain how this works.

First of all – yes I deserve to live my dream life! However, if my energy is saying “unappreciative people always get to live my dreams, even tho I deserve it more because I am a kind & fun person but nobody seems to notice” –
then that’s exactly what I’ll be creating.
I then won’t ever manifest my dream life, instead I’ll keep manifesting myself feeling exactly this way.

It doesn’t matter who is a kind person and who is not. You attract what you think & believe to be true even if it’s subconscious. Even if you aren’t aware of all of that resentment you are holding – it’s what you actually feel like and what you then keep creating in your life.

Our beliefs determine our manifestations and not who we logically know and think deserves what – that would be too easy right? Then all we had to do was to be “good people” haha. The actual work is working on your traumas and loving yourself unconditionally through it.

Ok, let’s move on to why would we care what other people get and deserve or not??? We will never be able to change their creator field so why even bother? I know it’s a very common thing to do as humans but it doesn’t do us any good. All this time spent gossiping over coworkers who suck is a waste of time and energy.
We could use that exact same time wisely and rewire our brain patterns instead, which then helps us move toward our dream life because again hating on others won’t take their let’s say high self-image away. If they already believe they deserve things and life is always working out for them, it won’t matter what we believe. We aren’t them – we don’t manifest for them.

If I want to change my life I need to work on my mindset, thought patterns, limiting beliefs, and neural pathways. We can only determine our own energy field.

And yes it’s true, people are already living my dreams. I’m a very adventurous person – I love traveling and nature. So things that I’m passionate about are the ocean, sea life, and diving, and I wanna learn how to “professional” skydive.

Also, keep in mind this is just an example, we all have different hobbies/passions even if we don’t know them or don’t practice them yet.

So yes it’s true so people were born on islands and can go diving and surfing all day, it’s very normal to them, whereas I was born in a country where there is nothing like that. Plus going on trips to places like that wasn’t a thing for my family.
When I first got introduced to literal nature I was already 19 and it took me until 25 to find out about skating and freediving, which is completely fine. However, somewhere in my energy is the thought that I believe I have disadvantages.

The thing is my soul (which is pretty much me) chose every single freaking thing about me, on purpose for a reason. Not only my internal and physical attributes but also my parents and where I was born.

So instead of my soul choosing:
A) for me to be born in let’s say Hawaii and have all these hobbies or passions
B) for me to be born in a country where I do not have access to all that but having passions such as painting,
my soul chose C) to have passions and hobbies as if I was born in Australia or Hawaii but born in a country in which I absolutely couldn’t do them. FUN

This is because my soul wanted me to be driven by those desires. Because I can not do my passions without money and trust me it fucking hurts to not be doing what you are passionate about. 

So this “pain” drives me to make my soul vocation work, which is helping a lot of people with trauma healing, because making my business work also means making money which means I get to do my passions.

But do you see how the way I grew up actually highly benefited me?
This is what gives me the energy and motivation to keep going no matter how uncomfortable and hard this journey seems. Because I can just not live a life in which I am not traveling the places I love.
I can also not live a life where I’m broke because those hobbies cost. 

If I was born let’s say in Hawaii those hobbies would be so accessible to me and maybe I wouldn’t be so driven to make my business work.
So it’s almost like making my soul career work then I’ll get a reward for that. Because we are humans, we have an ego for a reason and we love physical things and experiences.

It doesn’t work without them.

And the same goes for the limiting beliefs I had with my family. This is a lot of healing work but I also chose them.  What would I share here that is gonna help other people if I had a great childhood? I kinda took one for the team haha. 

So you see how this whole entire reflection and limiting thought pattern had nothing to do with my coworker “sucking” haha…. It literally had nothing to do with her. It just felt so personal because it was my reflection. which is about me understanding all this stuff. It’s here to literally just show me what emotions I’m still holding onto that are hindering me from exactly living my dreams and desires.

Love yall

Hope this could help!