How To Face That Fear Of Posting On Social Media But Being Your True Authentic Self

Everything started when I energetically pulled a 90 + % level of self-image from the Akashic records.
(In case you don’t know what the Akashic records are – it’s pretty much an energetic library including anything that anybody has ever mastered – at least that’s how I was taught).

If you are interested in how I’ve been facing the fear of showing up online when being my true authentic self keep reading because who knows, this might help you do the same!

In case you have no idea what I’m talking about when I say I pulled something energetically from the Akashic records don’t even worry about it because I’ve been working on my self-image & my self-love level for the past years and I didn’t know anything about energy work back then. All that did was speed up the timeline for me to have to face my fears and limiting beliefs with social media. All of them go back to self-image and or self-love wounds.

However, I still want to share that part of my experience of pulling self-image from the Akashic records. I think it’s important so you can understand exactly my development of being my true authentic self online.

Either way, this blog post is gonna help you if you want to show up online and or desire to be your true authentic self on social media but are having a lot of limiting beliefs and fears around this topic.

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PRE STORY

I am in training with an intuitive and energetic healer and the other day we learned how to pull from the Akashic records. Just imagine it as an energetic library with books or hard drives up somewhere in the universe lol.
So maybe like this???? 😀

After all this work I put in with healing my traumas and working on my limiting beliefs – I knew that if I massively wanted to elevate my life I needed to go all in and pull self-image.
Btw this is me just knowing how essential a high self-image is and has nothing to do with showing up online just yet.

Self-image is the way you see yourself and how you believe others see you.

So for example, if in our childhood we were told that we were stupid, made fun of made feel like we were a waste of space and less than which then show in low self-love and self-image.
No wonder that we are now so critical of ourselves.

For me, one of my biggest desires in this lifetime is learning how to deeply feel love, confidence, and value from within.
If that resonates with you again keep reading haha.

For the past year, I’ve been doing that – specifically by looking at my reflections which help heal the root cause of certain limiting beliefs.

Just like I’m sharing in this post with you guys!

You do not need to pull anything from the Akashic records in order for my experience to be of value to you. For the past year, I’ve been shifting drastically with the help of other tools.

Nowadays so many of us feel drawn to go online or feel called to share our knowledge and gifts with the world (not to mix that up with graving eternal validation and attention from other people in order to fill a void but that’s a different topic haha).

I’ve been creating content for the past several years myself and I’ve tried many different things for many different reasons – including self-improvement but I stopped because I was facing limiting beliefs that I wanted to shift & heal first.
Because subconsciously I was trying to fill a void through my business and money.
So I knew that I was gonna start posting online again but I pretty much postponed it.

Phase 1 High self-image

So after I pulled from the Akashic records I was feeling great for the first 2 days. I was truly satisfied with my internal and external attributes and not questioning myself anymore.

I remember I was off work and already mentally preparing for getting those new reflections at work lol.
We don’t just get to have a high self-image we need to “do something” in order to teach ourselves what that actually means. We pretty much get to practice ourselves to that level – just like a profile soccer player had to practice too.

But work was fine and I kept feeling great….

I then got another huge boost in confidence and was literally running around thinking I’m the shit.

Phase 2 Confidence meets limiting beliefs

I got these emotions someone must have who has literally almost 100% of self-image I assume.
I felt so confident and truly in love with being my true authentic self and then it hit me.
I was thinking omg I need to go and show up online, people need to see me! People need to hear what I have to say!

And then it hit me again. I suddenly got so scared. All those limiting beliefs I was hiding from came crashing in.
I didn’t plan on showing my face online for another freaking idk 5 months? lol until I cleared out “all my reflections.”

Since I got to taste that high sense of self-image and that calling to show up online I also had to now simultaneously face this huge fear and discomfort which hit me all at once.
Like this was literally me:

Phase 3  Facing the fear

The thing is I didn’t just wanna go online and share let’s just say “staged” videos of myself.
I really desire to show up as my true authentic self online.
I admire people who record videos after they just woke up and don’t care about lighting, filters, and how they look.
The reason I envy it is because I want TO BE  ABLE to do the same.

Since I now get to have that confidence to do so – I also got hit with all my limiting beliefs that are questioning that.

So I’ve been working on that fear.

I’ve been looking at if it’s fear of being vulnerable and/or people making fun of me – btw this is rooted deeply in trauma from childhood at least for most of us.

One of my main fears/limiting beliefs was/is that when I open my heart, I would then feel vulnerable, exposed, and not safe. 
However I was only able to shift so much when journaling. – I got myself to understand that my fears are not truth-based from a logical point of view. But I figured that the only way to overcome that fear completely is by showing up online.

Even if we understand where the the fear originates from and what that means – our body and brain still don’t like uncomfort. And things that aren’t familiar to our body are uncomfortable.
But they will become comfortable eventually and we become better at it as with anything we practice. 

I could go on and on about this topic and I am thinking I make an entirely new blog post on tools for facing fear.

Phase 4

I had another breakthrough when I understood that my fear was amplified by the pressure of having my business work out like yesterday.

As I already hinted I’ve been wanting to have my own business for the past 4 years. I put so much pressure and stress on myself which then literally amplified my fears and limiting beliefs.
Because it almost put time pressure on dealing with my fear.

Imagine someone who is scared of spiders. A spider being in their room makes them scared and they of course want to find a solution. A spider sitting on their arm has them screaming and running.

The closer the actual fear is the worse. So when we are extra scared of posting online – this is because we want it really bad. 

So if we get rid of that want, which doesn’t mean we are not doing it or postponing it any further  – helps us take the pressure off that already uncomfortable fearful feeling.

So what also really helped me was simultaneously taking the pressure off and pulling the need to have my own business running and making money from the pedestal.
How I did that is a whole other blog post too! I will tell you exactly how you can do the same so stay tuned!!
– It would kinda jump the word count on here lol –

I really hope that this was helpful and I’m sending much love to anyone going through this!